DaysuKun

numb. if i was numb, i wouldn't feel pain. numb. if i was numb, nothing as silly as these emotions would bother me. numb. if i was numb, i could look death in the eye and not be scared. numb. if i was numb, i wouldn't need to worry about the puny, worthless hearts of those around me. numb. if i was numb, i wouldn't break down so easily, i wouldn't hate so easily, i wouldn't love so easily, i wouldn't kill myself over one little statement so easily. numb. if i was numb, i would be able to live in the calm place in my mind. numb. it's too bad i aren't numb. it's too bad i get so worked up over each and every little thing that

Did you ever feel that if you told anyone, anyone at all, about what was going on in your head, or in you heart, that they would completely, and utterly, crush under the pressure? Did you ever feel that you are unloved, hated, unneeded? Did you ever feel dead to your heart, to all those around you, to the world? Ddi you ever feel like crying, but knew that you couldn't, because if you broke down, it would only hurt those you cared about? Did you ever feel that death was the only option, but then realized that, it wouldn't do anyone any good, much less you? Did you ever wonder why you are on this earth, if all it wants to